The Purpose Why I Write
Every year, I ask myself why I write.
Over the years, this reason has changed.
At first, I just wanted to get back to those who said that I “was nobody” and that I “won’t go anywhere in life.” It was a shame that some of those who said this were people who were supposed to be altruistic, but hey, there’s a reason why angels and devils exist, right?
To quote George Orwell:
Sheer egoism – Orwell argues that a writer writes from a “desire to seem clever, to be talked about, to be remembered after death, to get your own back on grown-ups who snubbed you in childhood, etc.” He says that this is a motive the writer shares with scientists, artists, lawyers – “the whole top crust of humanity” – and that the great mass of humanity, not acutely selfish, after the age of about thirty abandons individual ambition. A minority remains however, determined ‘to live their own lives to the end, and writers belong in this class.’ Serious writers are vainer than journalists, though “less interested in money”.
One by one, I proved everyone wrong. Slowly by slowly, I built myself.
But then, life changes people. In my case, the reason for why I wrote changed from “I want to get some payback” to “express myself”. It’s a good improvement, I guess.
Then, I realized that I lacked a lot of things. Grammar, vocabulary, usage – as well as knowledge of tropes and figurative language; these were some of the tools I lacked in my arsenal.
No wonder I received many rejection slips from newspapers, magazines and journals. When I looked back at how I write in the past, I realize that constant improvement and reading is the only way to go.
I bought a lot of books, read a lot of different genres, and even enrolled in some writing courses in order to get the hang of it.
Most importantly, I needed to learn discipline. When I am not writing, I read something. When I am not resting, I make sure that I live and breathe writing.
Some people may find it to be a relentless, cold and calculating path.
Stephen King already said that a writer should not expect to have a social life. I don’t and I’ve had enough of animals in human clothing anyway.
I know that I am already lost (and “damned”, if just to complete that phrase). I don’t care at all; I’ll live my life as it is. No regrets, no fear, no sorrow.
Same goes for writing. To hell with haters and doubters. I do know that there will be many people who won’t care and a lot more who won’t believe. But still, I try to live a writing life every day, even if it is not exactly appreciated by others.
But I am happy for the support of my family and friends. That’s better than nothing and I guess that’s a good place to start. I am happy that some of them share my work. That is enough for me.
Still, I am not ashamed to share my work nowadays. After all, I know that I worked hard for it.
The idea is to let others know about that work anyway, because writing is a bit of a lonely business.
Besides, who does not want one’s words to be immortalized, right?
And having the support of your girlfriend is the best thing that you can ever have. Seriously, if she will read my works throughout my lifetime, that’s enough for me. There is a writer who said, “If only one person reads your work forever, then you’ve done your job as a write.”
It’s really amazing to have that. I am super happy and grateful for that.
Nowadays though, I want my writing to have purpose. Once again, quoting Orwell’s “Why I Write”:
Political purpose – Orwell writes that “no book is genuinely free from political bias”, and further explains that this motive is used very commonly in all forms of writing in the broadest sense, citing a “desire to push the world in a certain direction” in every person. He concludes by saying that “the opinion that art should have nothing to do with politics is itself a political attitude.”
I want people to be able to appreciate life, to see that there is more than to the things that one sees on the surface, to experience its beauty…
I finally am reaching the place where I want to be. I have published poetry, essays, columns and features and so far, 2019 is looking good for me in terms of writing.
In addition, I got accepted into the UP MA Creative Writing program, which is basically a dream for many people when it comes to writing.
I look forward to learn a lot and write more. I am hoping to be able to go to new heights!
Anyways, this is the journey of “why I write.”
NOTE: Here are the places to submit (that are open to everyone), when it comes to English:
Young Blood (by the Philippine Daily Inquirer – PDI)
Love. Life (also by PDI)
The Sunday Times Magazine (Manila Times)
The Philippines GRAPHIC
University journals (LIKHAAN by UP, TOMAS by UST, etc.)
Other literary journals
Here is a quick list to the other writing stuff that I’ve done since 2013:
Young Blood (Philippine Daily Inquirer):
Electronic Sports and Gaming
- WASD Philippines (July 2016-July 2018)
- Crossfire Stars (September 2016-February 2017)
- Esports by INQUIRER.Net (September 2014-July 2016)
- CSGO2ASIA (contributions)
- Dot Esports/GAMURS (contributions)
- War Robots (2017-present)
The blog’s owner has also written for Dafabet Esports as well as the now-defunct Esports Manila and Anatolia Daily.
He has also published features and columns in a couple of regional newspapers in the Philippines, among others.